What an existential piece, Morris. To me, self pity is my acknowledgement that I have needs that need to be addressed. I have a small precious handful of friends to whom I can go wallow when I'm in my self pity phase. I hope you do too, but just so you know I think you're an absolute gem and I'd be happy to be your friend in and out of Medium as well. Your piece made me feel like we're all connected and go through similar things. :)